059 - February 28 2024 - the package

a parcel came for me
unexpected on my doorstep
starliner tickets
one way
into the heart of our star

make me ashes and minerals again
and relieve me
from this always floundering
this always always deteriorating
bag
I call my home

shunt the wicked thoughts
and the careening desires
(I cringe to remember it all)
from my skull

return me to the heart of the reactor
and then
later later later

to the drifting cold gas
of the infinite